Our choices define our Experience
How much darkness should we forgive in someone we love? I believe unconditional love is a myth that we feed ourselves to justify why we allow ourselves to be victimized by someone darkness we proclaimed to love unconditional.
Micheline Jean Louis
You are casting a powerful spell of healing into your soul, when you speak kindness to yourself
~Micheline Jean Louis
The world is on fire!
the human reaction :
some take cover,
some are celebrating and shouting “let it burn!”
some search for water
some blame
some full of despair, awaits the big death!
collectively we are all experiencing an extraordinary event, be it on a different scale
with different perspective , we are collectively observing the world on fire.
~Micheline Jean Louis
Being human comes with the high’s and the low’s , it’s part of the human experience, so stop beating yourself for having a bad moment, express it, accept it , than release it.
~Micheline Jean Louis
Should we all learn to settle with the Rhythm of our heartbeat, what a grandiose life we would live.
-Micheline Jean Louis
“When you comprehend all things are interconnected, you begin to see yourself in all things, you realized how magical you are.”
Micheline Jean Louis
What is lasting, unshakeable and unbreakable is your authentic self .
~ Micheline Jean Louis
The outside energies will never stop knocking, always looking for ways to come in, and believe me they can not come in without your permission, so learn to protect your happy place, your renewing place, the refueling for your soul, the place where your inner voice is stronger than the outside noises.
Micheline Jean Louis
“We are on the same path you and I, seeking healing that will mend the brokenness of our past
We try to be brave for our future but self-defeating seem to be winning, we are not a mistake,
We just have not find a way to be strong for the love we want. We can find each other, we just got to be brave enough.”
Micheline Jean Louis
If they can walk away, let them, because those that knows your value and worth will stay. you don’t need anyone that can’t handle your imperfections, you don’t need anyone when you’re down that will turn their backs on you.
He will kiss your imperfections, paint them with his love, embrace you as you are, he will not demand of you alteration to please his ego, when you look into his eyes your soul will feel at home, he will know you are deserving of his best, he won’t hold back his heart from you, self doubt will go away, his word will speak life into your broken places.
-Micheline Jean Louis
There are some people that has been knock down so many times, and yes they’ve gotten back up, but just could not find the courage to keep fighting, they stop trying to dodge the blows of life, they simply prepare and learn to take the punches as they come, they sort of become immune to it by expecting it,they are never surprise. it’s a state of mind that it hurt less when you know the blow are coming, you just tighten your muscle, a defense mechanism. these individuals learn to suffer in silence, only the moonlight has been granted access to see their tears at night, they wear daily mask of fake smiles. These individuals didn’t start out that way, they were once a people full of hope, courage, and dreams, but pain was the first to find them and kiss their soul, pain was the first to say I love you, pain was the first to say I will remain faithful to you, you will always have my arms around you. hope, courage and dreams just stood there while these individual whispered ‘I love you.” But only pain answered back….. to be continued
-Micheline Jean Louis
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As I walk these cold streets,
Loneliness takes hold of me
Hoping my heart echoes
Reach your soul.
Come and free me,
From the snares of brokenness
Heal the scars of imitation love.
Without you I am divided,I keep slipping in love with pretenders
But I no longer want to fall but to walk in love (reflect)
My soul awaits! Where are you?
My journey without you is like walking barefooted
On burning coals.
Come let me look into your eyes once more
So I can leave the present pain behind
Let me see my beauty shining through your eyes again,
The gate to divine love.
Once more allow me to be that precious gem that used to shine in your heart
Micheline Jean Louis
Hear the songs of the birds, the joy in their sounds
Distinctive yet pure, not a care in the world.
They flaps their wings with boldness, they relished
In their freedom, no worries of what tomorrow will make of them
They simply flow with the wind,
The birds are fully aware that all their needs has already been provided for.
Their faith in the creator is what make
Their songs so magical to our ears.
Oh, how I do wish to sing the songs of the birds
Micheline Jean Louis
Last night in My dream
he’s energy vibe like me
sound like me, he’s soul echoes my heart desire
he remind me of the home I’ve been waiting for
should I embrace this warmth, this peace that I’m feeling
could this be love, the one and only love..
he’s openness make me want to love like i’ve never love before
I want to break down the walls and lay down my fears
and let him hold me in his arms, allow his love protect me,
it’s so easy now to close my eyes and see a future
I thought was impossible, could this be love the one and only love.
~Micheline Jean Louis
I saw a reflection of you in the pond,
My heart ached, a single tear from my eyes
Fell in connect with your reflection, from that day on
I knew I was sacredly bond to your soul
And that my heart would never be free of you until all heaven has passed away.
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The shades of love dances in the mind of men, flipping the pages of time painting hopes of love as it caresses desired needs. Bathe In the rage of passion it inspires the heart to dream dreams. Sacred in mystery it creates its own path for eternity. The presence of love ever so near, yet never to be touch, Like a lingering fragrance, it captivate the soul of men weaving a thread of eternal bliss, it leaves us all speechless and wanting thus creating a thirst never to be quench.
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Let me empty myself in your grace
Let me unveil my fears
Let me warm your soul with kisses
Let me paint you with words of love
Let me in your void, to find a resting place
Let me near your heart, so when I take my last breath I may greet death with a smile
Knowing I was close to heaven.
– Micheline Jean Louis
Days has come and gone,
time did not remain still long enough,
the chaotic fears swirling about of not repeating past mistakes,
we forgot to love the in-between moments that was meant to anchor us,
we both drown next to each other, not realizing we could have been each other lifeguards.
–Micheline Jean Louis
Poetry, poetry where art thou? Have you decided to disperse your magic
Elsewhere? Have thou found another lover that caresses your core better than I?
Is her touch softer, does her lip drips sweeter honey then mine. Oh poetry, poetry..
Where has thou gone, did someone come like a thief in the night, and snatch you out of my breast while I was asleep. Or was it the sheikh that came to you with all manners of rubies, and offer you to be one of his concubines. Did you get too drunk with my pain and decided it was time to go to rehab.
Poetry oh poetry where have thou gone? My beloved geisha the perfect picture of ecstasy ,
Where art thou? You are the closest thing to heaven, the loveliness of your pure beauty, Untainted by reason and doubt. You are precious music to my soul; the way you move around my heart causes orgasmic freedom and peace. You, my Beloved poetry with your strength you push me to feel my darkest pain, and with much benevolence you connect my heart to the love of the universe. My beloved poetry you are the vision to my seeing eyes. You are the only road I can travel upon,
You are the raindrop to those that was left to die in the desert of hopelessness. My beloved poetry where art thou? Please come back to me, for if you do not I will surely cease to exist.
By Micheline Jeanlouis
” She is so strong no matter how rocky things get, she still shine, even her shadow.” Micheline Jean Louis
We are filled vessels that gets to choose what we pour back into the world, and what we choose to share defines who we are. —Micheline Jean Louis
Today focus on the qualities you like about yourself, focus on the good friends and family members you have around you .feed today with gratefulness . what you focus on I believe will remain constant in your life. Micheline Jean Louis
Yes I said winning, how am I doing that you ask ?
well first I had to acknowledge that I was suffering from depression, I’m aware of the symptoms and understand when those emotions and feeling are strongest, I know those negative thoughts that comes and where they were going to lead me, by being aware, it led me to discover that I had the power to control them. When those hurtful memories from the past knocks, before, I used to open the door and invite them in and allow myself to linger in those feelings, agreeing with those emotions allowing myself to be a victim all over again, I was reliving those painful moments, I was feeding my energy negative thoughts from my past. onced I discovered that I had rights to my present feelings, I begin to fight against the negative thoughts, when they came knocking. I knew I had a choice to open to it or not to.
Positive Distractions
I chose other distractions such as turning on the music, go walking, grab a pen and paper and start writing,(writing has never fail me that is why I call it my saving grace.) I would pick up the phone and call someone, now is not easy at first, it’s a daily challenge which will required daily will. some days are tougher than other base on whatever triggers those feelings. I personally believe the reason some has succumb to depression worse than others is because they are not aware of choices when it comes to those feelings and emotions that are detrimental to their mental health. those thoughts that comes saying, “you are not love, you are a failure, just end it all etc, will only get louder if you sit there and listen to it, I had to find a way to quiet those thoughts, understanding that I don’t have to focus on it because by focusing on those thoughts will only fuel its power in my mind.
SHAME
Another discovery I made was not feeling ashamed of suffering from depression, which is another huge factor that help my (Winning). I told myself so many people out there are dealing with something, no one have a perfect life, all of us are struggling with one thing or another, and shame never bring about healing, shame is a form of emotions that will keep you in the dark and confine you to a state of mind that won’t allow you room to forgive self and others.
Happy Place
Happy Place! I got creative in creating happy places for me to go when negative thoughts start knocking, I gave myself other alternatives, here some example. My kids, I start thinking about them, I start focusing on them, I will grab a photo album and start going through their pics, I will venture into a memory of the last good thing I did or happen to me. I stay conscious of my thoughts, I stay presence of my now.
No cure, But its OK
I know there is no cure for depression, so I had to make a decision on how I’m going to live with depression and not let it get the best of me. so the answer came to me over time, by acknowledging it, don’t fear it, don’t be ashame of it, and know I also have the ability and power over how my feelings and emotion affect me on a day to day living. By realizing and accepting that I had a choice when it comes to my feelings and emotions and the thoughts that I focus on, and allow to lord in my mind, empowered me to have a more healthier mindset. It’s a responsibility I challenge myself with daily,and that is why I’m winning.
~Micheline Jean Louis
Self-confidence will take you places where degrees and money can’t. beliefs in self will always make you a winner. Micheline Jean Louis
For some poets the night is the perfect sphere with pen and paper in hand come to die in agony and be born again healed. Micheline Jean Louis
I missed the days when the sun used to paint your smile, the rays illuminating your face reminding me of all things wonderful, I long to see the way your eyes used to gleamed as though God was using them as inspiration to paint the stars at night, oh I do miss the way you were when you thought you were loved. Micheline Jean Louis
I don’t defend pain, But I do respect its ability to make us stronger and wiser after it stings. Micheline Jean Louis
I believe your smile is the reflection of all things made wonderful, hmm your smile the way it curves and entice the soul to crave more, yes that smile of yours such enchantment who can withstand such power,if there’s any antidotes that can break the spell of your smile, I wish to stay off its path for I wish to stay bewitched forever.
Micheline Jean Louis
Dear death, where are you? When will you come for me? I’ve been waiting for you to save me, I’m eager for the tenderness of your kiss that will take my breath away. I long for your presence that will usher me into nothingness,that peaceful place where all that exists is silence. I yearn for your arms around me to shield from this life of pain. My beloved I beseech you to heed upon my request and make haste, do not wait till I wither away before you pluck me out of this misery call living, have mercy! Look upon my sorrows, my battered soul has run out of room for scars, I’m too broken to see the purpose of the sun, the rising rays only further infuse how I was betrayed by love wrath. I’m no use for this life and neither life is useful to me. I implore your grace death, please come save me. Your promises of eternal darkness is my last hope, do not fail me as life did. Im nothing but a forgotten memory to this world of the living. I urge you to examine my past, for I am confident you will find me worthy of an end. Yours truly a victim of unrequited love.
-MICHELINE JEAN LOUIS
