Existence

We’re all just fighting to be recognized, we want to know that we are not alone in this maze. We want to feel like we belong. Our fear is that we are running out of time to exist, we are running out of time to matter, to be love, to become something more, not just another grain of sand in the sea, we want to shine, we want history to remember us. we are constant in our search for a bit of luck and magic, anything to signify something special. we want the memory of us to be immortal even after our physical body has decay, we want continual existence. we want meaning, we want to exist and matter now and tomorrow…. ©2022 Micheline Jean Louis

The Way of the Soul

Who knows the way of the soul

shapeless, full of mysteries, 

knows  the secrets of old

hints here and there, but the path remains hidden

who truly knows the way of the soul?

dormant helix, wake up! Let my third eye see the glory!

stardust I am, yet I remain blind to the light.

who knows the way of the soul

©2022 Micheline Jean Louis

Look at me

Look at Me

No, Look at me!

I’m drowning in pain

I cant breathe

The smiles aren’t real

I’m just another  broken spirit that has learned to function, because who looks beyond that?

I’m a mother, wife, sister and a friend. I functioned in those roles,

while little by little, dying in pain.

Look at me  please before  I am no more.

©2022 Micheline Jean Louis

Dusty Walls

He Came looking for love and all he found was an empty place and dusty walls
A Place where hopes and passion once breathe
If these dusty walls could speak
They would tell a story of once upon a time
There was a girl who believed in love, and love she did
She had a smile that could inspire the sun to rise
she had courage and passion
Which cause the moon and the stars to glitter and shine
But love happen and pain took over
Broke her over and over until she was no more
And now all that’s left are these dusty walls full of memories of a girl that once love

©2022 Micheline Jean Louis

Crazy? yes I am, and thank you!

I used to be mad when they called me crazy, until I realized that in those moments they considered me insane, I was following my heart, doing what made me happy, and most of all being myself. So now when I am called crazy, I take it as a great compliment because it’s confirmation that I’m living my best life.

~Micheline Jean Louis

Thee god?

There is no god coming to save us

We are on our own

There’s no heaven or hell waiting on the other side

This is it!

We were conditioned to believe so we can be controlled

You really believed there’s a loving God looking down to earth.

Centuries after centuries watching atrocities after atrocities, massacre,

Disease, wars, all the evil taking place and doeth nothing? You really believe (He) is preparing  a room for you in his kingdom? So many religions and so many books, so many gods and all the believers,  believe their books are the true words and their god is thee god.

They fight and killed one another in the name of their gods.

The book that man wrote, claimed inspired by a god, pass it to the crowds , the crowds say ok, and voila, humanity is fuck!

Example. The people took all their gold and melted it in the fire. the people carved an image out of the melted gold, and shouted with joy,  this will be our new god and they bow down and worship the image they carved with their bare hands.

©2022 Micheline Jean Louis

Hello

I’m awake now

Went to sleep for a while

Uncertainty came to see me

and offer me a glass of depression

I think I drank too much, 

But I’m awake now. Full of energy with a new dose on life

Hello world I’m ready to learn something new, tread on a new path.

Love more and dream with more passion

Hello World I’m awake now!!

©2022 Micheline Jean Louis

Life sentence

Walk with me upon these prickly stones

my dying soul seek to be atone

I roam the deserts, for I am disown

do not ask me where I’m going, destiny unknown

long time ago my soul overthrown,

found guilty before I was born.

A walking corpse, love did not find me worthy of its affection,

with all its power and might , I was sentence to a life of pain

©2022 Micheline Jean Louis

A letter to me from childhood-self

Dear adult me,

I wish you could forget the pain I suffered

I wish you did not feel responsible for the monster touched

I wish the burden of shame was not yours to bear

I wish our childhood was full of laughter and joy

I wish we got to experience the innocence of being a child with love.

I’m sorry you had to go through the journey of questioning why weren’t you good enough to be love

The answers may never come,

I know you will get judge with “what’s wrong with her.” Why is she that way?

But know that I know what happened to you and understand.

My hope is that you will find a way to love YOU and that will be enough.

My hope is that in spite of our beginning, you will find the courage to create a path that will give you peace, I hope you discover the powerful YOU, so you can heal the broken little girl Inside.

©2022 Micheline Jean Louis

Hello

I close my eyes, saw myself

Happy 

Free

Loved

Healed

Forgiving

At peace, and oh did I say loved?

I saw my self at peace, even my eyes were smiling

The wind caressing my skin with  soft kisses blown from the sun

Hello! I opened my eyes

Reality  staring at me

The tears began again, as I whispered back hello.

Micheline Jean Louis

World on fire

The world is on fire!

the human reaction :

some take cover,

some are celebrating and shouting “let it burn!”

some search for water

some blame

some full of despair, awaits the big death!

collectively we are all experiencing an extraordinary event, be it on a different scale

with different perspective , we are collectively observing the world on fire.

~Micheline Jean Louis

Your happy place

The outside energies will never stop knocking, always looking for ways to come in, and believe me they can not come in without your permission, so learn to protect your happy place,  your renewing place, the refueling for your soul, the place where your inner voice is stronger than the outside noises.

Micheline Jean Louis

The One

He will kiss your imperfections,  paint them with his love, embrace you as you are,  he will not demand of you alteration to please his ego, when you look into his eyes your soul will feel at home, he will know you are deserving of his best, he won’t  hold back his heart from you, self doubt will go away, his word will speak life into your broken places.

-Micheline Jean Louis

Pain the first to kiss their soul

There are some people that has been knock down so many times, and yes they’ve gotten back up, but just could not find the courage to keep fighting, they stop trying to dodge the blows of life, they simply prepare and learn to take the punches as they come, they sort of become immune to it by expecting it,they are never surprise. it’s a state of mind that it hurt less when you know the blow are coming, you just tighten your muscle, a defense mechanism. these individuals learn to suffer in silence, only the moonlight has been granted access to see their tears at night, they wear daily mask of fake smiles. These individuals didn’t start out that way, they were once a people full of hope, courage, and dreams, but pain was the first to find them and kiss their soul,  pain was the first to say I love you, pain was the first to say I will remain faithful to you, you will always have my arms around you. hope, courage and dreams  just stood there while these individual whispered ‘I love you.” But only pain answered back….. to be continued

-Micheline Jean Louis

 

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Only your love can heal me

As I walk these cold streets,

Loneliness takes hold of me

Hoping my heart echoes

Reach your soul.

Come and free me,

From the snares of brokenness

Heal the scars of imitation love.

Without you I am divided,I keep slipping in love with pretenders

But I no longer want to fall but to walk in love (reflect)

My soul awaits! Where are you?

My journey without you is like walking barefooted

On burning coals.

Come let me look into your eyes once more

So I can leave the present pain behind

Let me see my beauty shining through your eyes again,

The gate to divine love.

Once more allow me to be that precious gem that used to shine in your heart

Micheline Jean Louis

Songs of the birds I wish to sing

Hear the songs of the birds, the joy in their sounds

Distinctive yet pure, not a care in the world.

They flaps their wings with boldness, they relished

In their freedom, no worries of what tomorrow will make of them

They simply flow with the wind,

The birds are fully aware that all their needs has already been provided for.

Their faith in the creator is what make

Their songs so magical to our ears.

Oh, how I do wish to sing the songs of the birds

Micheline Jean Louis

Last night dreams

Last night in My dream

he’s energy vibe like me

sound like me, he’s soul echoes my heart desire

he remind me of the home I’ve been waiting for

should I embrace this warmth, this peace that I’m feeling

could this be love, the one and only love..

he’s openness make me want to love like i’ve never love before

I want to break down the walls and lay down my fears

and let him hold me in his arms, allow his love protect me,

 it’s so easy now to close my eyes and see a future 

I thought was impossible, could this be love the one and only love.

~Micheline Jean Louis

 

Reflection

I saw a reflection of you in the pond,
My heart ached, a single tear from my eyes
Fell in connect with your reflection, from that day on
I knew I was sacredly bond to your soul
And that my heart would never be free of you until all heaven has passed away.

 

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Shades of Love

The shades of love dances in the mind of men, flipping the pages of time painting hopes of love as it caresses desired needs. Bathe In the rage of passion it inspires the heart to dream dreams. Sacred in mystery it creates its own path for eternity. The presence of love ever so near, yet never to be touch, Like a lingering fragrance, it captivate the soul of men weaving a thread of eternal bliss, it leaves us all speechless and wanting thus creating a thirst never to be quench.

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Let me

Let me empty myself in your grace

Let me unveil my fears

Let me warm your soul with kisses

Let me paint you with words of love

Let me in your void, to find a resting place

Let me near your heart, so when I take my last breath I may greet death with a smile

Knowing I was close to heaven.

– Micheline Jean Louis

The moments we forgot

Days has come and gone,
time did not remain still long enough,
the chaotic fears swirling about of not repeating past mistakes,
we forgot to love the in-between moments that was meant to anchor us,
we both drown next to each other, not realizing we could have been each other lifeguards.
–Micheline Jean Louis